SONG STORY – HIGHER THAN I
1Hear my cry, O God;
Attend to my prayer.
2 From the end of the earth I will cry to You,
When my heart is overwhelmed;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
3 For You have been a shelter for me,
A strong tower from the enemy.
4 I will abide in Your tabernacle forever;
I will trust in the shelter of Your wings. Selah
5 For You, O God, have heard my vows;
You have given me the heritage of those who fear Your name.
6 You will prolong the king’s life,
His years as many generations.
7 He shall abide before God forever.
Oh, prepare mercy and truth, which may preserve him!
8 So I will sing praise to Your name forever,
That I may daily perform my vows.
I first read this Psalm in 2013. It wasn’t the first time that I had read it, but it was the first time that the words came alive in my heart. It was a simple prayer of deliverance that I found myself uttering just as the psalmist David had done hundreds of years before.
As a songwriter there are moments we have that we long to capture in song, and this for me was one of them. The words "higher than I" to me longed to be sung. So I logged it in a book of ongoing ideas, and there it remained until April 2014.
I know the date because this is when for us at Calvary Chapel, our hearts grew heavy and overwhelmed, just as the psalm described, with the announcement that our senior Pastor at the time would step down due to moral failure. Our world was shaken, our church very much in shock, and our hearts mourning for that which we had lost.
It was not long after that some of the women from our department were offered a time to meet with Suzanne Sauder, just to allow us to express how each of us were doing and the thoughts and fears we had since the news. We gathered, we shared, and we prayed.
At the end of our time Susanne shared the verse that she had been clinging to. Psalm 61:2;
"From the end of the earth I will cry to You, When my heart is overwhelmed; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I"
Oh how our God is in all things! He knows all things before they ever come to pass. He that will sustain us and carry us, our shelter, forever. In every season we can imagine and every one we could never fathom, still our God will lead us.
The song was finished in 2016. Start till finish, I have seen our God be ONLY faithful. He has never wavered in leading us, He is our shelter even in the unimaginable, and for that He is worthy of all honor and praise.